Love

Created on 10/29/2009

Some time ago, I received a letter and since it was corresponding quite remarkably with what I had been trying to understand, I contacted the writer and asked her permission to use her personal letter for this blog.

She said it was okay and here it is:

 

 

Dear Olga

 

I guess many people will recognize the following problem That is why I dare

to ask you to let your light shine over it

 

10 years ago I fell in love with a man.

For a couple of years, we had a very passionate relationship. When he

decided to separate, it felt to me like an amputation. The pain has eased by

now.

But the fairly easy access I used to have to my inner space seems to be

blocked ever sins. Almost every time I try to go there it is hard to get

around this man.

 

I really hope you want to give your advice.

 

Thank you so much

 

Best regards,

 

I decided to write about it not because I am in any position to give advice (I am not), but because I relate to it, deeply.

Love is something that has always mesmerized me (I was raised in a Russian culture after all), evaded my grasp often and at some point took me hostage for life and never let me go.

So what is it about Love that has such a power over human beings?

I think we possess an innate drive that defines our behavior profoundly, however, this drive has yet to be recognized. We know about human instincts from psychology and they are all valid and real when it comes to survival, sex, procreation, and even death. The one that is missing from our awareness is the drive to merge with another, and all the pleasures that come with it, and all the pain that losing it creates. It is different from the sexual drive, distinctively, even though most often it becomes attainable through sexual experience. I believe this drive is a powerful force and is being realized with different intensity in different people. I think it is a precursor for the next evolutionary step that humanity is going to undertake. That step is the formation of a collective entity - the noosphere, the world brain, the global mind, whatever you call it. This notion of us becoming parts of one whole system is getting more apparent each day now, but the entire focus on this evolutionary step, so far, is only directed to the social and cognitive phenomenon of social networking. Anything involving an emotional response to this process is considered just a fascinating and curious by-product, at most.

My vision is different. I think we are going through this networking revolution first and foremost due to this innate drive to merge with others. That is why looking for Love and looking for your community becomes more and more similar as our collective experience evolves.

I think this drive is biological and spiritual at the same time, and I also know first hand that when it is fully realized in the experience with another person, it alters you irreversibly. How many amazing books have been written, poems composed, art created to translate this absolute experience of Great Love in our culture. Yet, the experience remains a unique, mysterious calling and complete consumption of one who goes through it. As great as is the pleasure that the realization of this drive brings us, so is the pain of losing it. That is why I could relate to this letter. Because I know the pain of loss as well as the pleasure of Great Love.

I believe now that this innate drive to merge, when it is realized with another person, enhances our identities in a very particular way. It is almost like somebody takes us on a miracle ride and shows us places we never imagined existed, places where we feel so much ourselves, content, and happy that when we return back home we can’t conform to the limited reality of what we were before. Separation is painful because we feel the loss of this identity, literally, you know how people often say, “part of my soul is gone”, “I am not myself” when the person they love is gone. It feels like amputation, it feels like part of my inner space is blocked and I can’t access it.

So what is the solution for pain from loss? We’d better have one because pain is inevitable - people leave, people die and they are not coming back, not in this lifetime, so what can we do to transform the pain?

I think part of the solution is to regain identity, because the merging has already happened, and the part of us represented by the person who left is still inside. So the loss, as real and painful as it feels, is an illusion because nothing from what happened has been taken away. What we really mourn is the loss of opportunities, of the future experiences that haven’t occurred yet. But it only means that we have more space available for other experiences that will bring us pleasure. And we just need to refocus our drive to merge with something else, something that the growing part of self can recognize as nurturing and healing, be it poetry, travel, dreams, or art. I realize that it is quite different from the merging experience with another consciousness - books and art and places can’t replace a person lost. Yet, I don’t think it should be a search for another person, because it can get more misleading and confusing. Also, it is often unfair to another person who is looking to merge with the mirror of their true self and is not looking to become someone else’s shadow. But I think after a Great Love happens, we have another presence left with us, another consciousness that we can continue to connect with and this is Love herself. And after all, Love that is being created through the realization of this drive between two people is a real entity, one of which we both become a part of and, as such, it doesn’t die. It sure can kill, because it can be a ferocious entity, but after it comes to life through the merging of two people, it is going to stay alive and enduring for much longer than our individual existence. And thus, it can give us a glimpse of immortality. That is why I think we cherish it so much and keep longing for it no matter what. Because there are roots of all true magic in Love created by people’s merging.

It doesn’t mean we can’t have relationships after Love. In fact, I think we should because relationships have a lot of other important functions to realize and we can still connect and experience intimacy without this mystical merging. We just need to be specific and honest, and if we know that the Great Love has already happened to us, cherish the memory of it and let the pain go. And speaking of blocking inner space, I don’t think it is a memory of a person that blocks our inner space, I think it is a memory of pain from the loss that scares us from going inside. And I think this is why it's important to purify the memory of happy merging and the sense of self that was rebuilt on that from the memory of loss and the pain it brought, so we keep the gain of evolving together.  

It will be really fascinating to see how it is going to play out on a collective level when many people will keep finding new forms to merge and to create new collective entities. But one thing I am sure of, is that any of this would be impossible without Love.

So these are my thoughts on it. As always, I appreciate your attention and any remarks or comments you may have. It is one of those miracles of our days when I can feel understood and share my feelings with somebody on another side of the planet without even meeting you personally.

Love,

Olga

 

 

 

 

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DEAR OLGA

I want to celebrate, having met you this way.
I’ll let your words sink in, before I react to them.

But now I want to share an experience, that came shortly after I wrote
you the letter about my blocked inner space.

Imaginary, I met with this man, when I was walking over the dike. At
that moment and the rest of the day it felt very good. But the day’s
after I could not get him out of my mind. It felt like being stalked,
until I wrote the experience down.
What I have seen and felt I wrote it down exactly. Sins than he keeps
quiet, and I can think of something else too. So I am glad.

I hope I can translate this text in to English, in the same poetic style
as in Dutch, without being ridiculous. It is a risk I’ll take.

= = = = = = = = = = = = = = = = =

Markerdike
Markerdijk

I am walking over the dike.
Ik loop over de dijk

There is silence in the air. The sky ‘s withe-gray with here and there
pale blue .
Het weer is stil, de lucht witgrijs met hier en daar een gaatje blauw.

With the sound of a motorboat, the world pulls back in a far away distance.
Met het geluid van een motorbootje trekt de wereld zich in verre verte
terug.

Like breathing, small waves roll in, roll out.
Kabbelend rollen kleine golven af en aan als één groot ademhalen.

And than… There you are.
En dan…, ben jij er.

Your smile and mine.
Jouw glimlach en de mijne.

Entangled In united silence, we walk, and walk, with still some miles to go
Verstrengeld in verenigd zwijgen, lopen, lopen wij, met nog een end te gaan

Inside is outside. Outside is inside. The horizon evaporates in damp.
Binnen is als buiten. Buiten is als binnen. De horizon lost op in
heiïgheid.

Where air and water meet, ….... , there ‘s endlessness
waar lucht en water elkaar raken, geen einder maar oneidigheid.

At the turning point, as we can’t get any further,
Bij het keerpunt, als we niet meer verder kunnen,

I see wind feathers white, wiped the sky clean blue behind me.
zie ik, dat achter mij de lucht met witte windveren blauw, is schoon
geveegd

and you, you fade away.
en jij lost op

Content , fed, …. and glad, I walk back towards the world,
Voldaan, gevoed, gelaafd en blij loop ik terug, de wereld tegemoet

wich awaits me, bright and sharply drawn, at the end of the road,
die helder en scherp afgetekend wacht aan het einde van het pad

By Carine van Steen on 2009 10 30

By OlgaK on 10/31/2009

Thank you Olga, indeed to let go of the pain of loss and go on living with what we have gained, and give our all to every thing we under take to find that it can sometimes bring these wonderful, unexpected, surprising, communications as we lately had, it made me feel like a butterfly dancing in the colours and smell of a field with wild flowers. 
With Love C

By carine on 11/01/2009

Thanks Olga, for sharing this text. 
I read your text 2 or 3 times, and each time I founded phrases that captured my attention:  “regain identity”, “the memory of happy merging”, “there are roots of all true magic in Love created by people’s merging”, “create new collective entities” among others.
Obviously some questions came with these phrases, but one with more intensity or curiosity, what do you mean exactly with “collective entities”.  Is it like a kind of spirits bounded to these memories?  How it works?

Thanks again, I really enjoy Cliffhouse space.

By Sonia C on 11/10/2009

Dear Olga.

In my life things cumulated lately to a dramatic climax. I needed to write about it to understand myself and what was going on. The good experience of our earlier correspondance, made me write to you.  Love Carine.

14 november 2009 SWASTIKA

TO THE SHAMAN

Dear Olga, In your book master of lucid dreams, Michael gave you a swastika.
This, so contaminated symbol , would neutralize separation, and create dreams, that clean inner space. It helped Macha to heal.

Do you believe that this symbol of a swastika, contaminated as it is, can heal damages caused by the second world war?

I am born after the war. I married a much older man, who is partly from Jewish Portugese off spring. He was raised in a rigid suppressing religion, in which one is born guilty. He was 15 when he witnessed the outbreak of war and was confronted with violent death. At 17 he was deeply involved in the Dutch resistance wich brought him in to life threatening situations. Around that age he had to make choices to obey or not to obey orders to kill.

As a grownup he became a dominant, obstinate, talented, creative, charismatic, practical but vain man. As long as I know him, I never saw him contemplate self reflection other than in relation to circumstances. He had high socialistic ideals and ability’s. As social worker all his projects were successful. He was never motivated by money.

His private life was less smooth. There were many woman, 3 marriages, 3 divorces, 6 children of his own and 3 stepchildren. 18 grandchildren and 8 great grandchildren with 2 still on their way. I was his last wife and the love of his life.

In 2001, after 22 years together, I left him.

During my time with him I often felt like a war widow. As long as I aloud the relationship to be hierarchical, with me being the young admiring wife, or as long as we kept it strictly functional between us it was oké. But of course that wasn’t oké.

He did not know joy or playfulness. So often in serious matters, or when I did not agree with him, I tried to get through to him, talk things out or over. But I would not meet him, I only met the cruel jailer. The man I believed in, was locked in behind iron doors, and I was locked out. Of course I hoped that my love and care could help him free himself. It is this hope that kept me with him for all those years and thus I got trapped myself. Finally the best thing to do for me (as wel as for him I think) was to go. That´s what I did and I don´t regret it.

Some time ago, after he fell and broke his hip, I decided to take care of his basic needs again. Together with some of his children I reorganized his house. I started to do his shopping, cook his meals and we eat our warm meals together again 4 or 5 times a week. This time we played, being together, by my rules. The only rule was that he would appreciate me being there. If not, I would be gone. He did quite all right , although he kept longing for more. He somehow denied our brake up and my love for someone else. After 10 years, he still did not want to believe it. His concept of our relation is the main thing on his mind and his biggest frustration.

Lately he fell again. Maybe something went wrong in his head. He is very very slow now in understanding what has been said. He is confused and it’s hart breaking to see the despair in his eyes, by the consciousness of his inability to cope with simple everyday things. But his emotions are clearly related to his situation and the people he is with. His mood changes, from sadness to despair, to fear, anger, hate. And his mind in the process seems to disintegrate more. and I seem to be the hook to hang it all on.

When he is sad and afraid I want to help, when there is anger and hate I would like to run. I wish there would be something I could do.

15 november

With this last thought as a prayer in my head, I went to bed, but first I drew a swastika to take with me. This time the symbol was not repulsive to me. While drawing it, I saw how much it is like a tob, I saw it turning.
I don´t remember any dreams, but I woke up inspired by the old hope to help him free himself from the traumas that drove us apart. I had an idea what I could do.
My opinion about his situation had changed. At first, you see, I thought that he sufferd some kind of brain damage. But doctors did not think so. Now I was almost certain that his traumas, the hardship of pretending - nothing between us had changed-, the fall and frightening long waiting time for me to find him, might have brought him in a state of shock and psychosis. My idea how I might be able to bring him back to his general mental strength was to make him come to terms with the reality of our relationship.

20 november

So much has happend since the last time I wrote this rapport. I have been busy and I was not in the mood to write. Now I’ll catch up

So..... that Sunday morning I went to hospital to see him. I prayed to find an entrance and the words to get through to him. I had now idea how to, but I did not need to know. After I had taken him in a wheelchair to a more private room we sat a little while in silence together till he came up with the subject of our relationship. From that moment on the conversation flew naturally there was contact no confusion and it felt very good to finally talk about it.

He: “I don’t understand it, I still love you, our age difference has not changed, so why can’t we

be together? I stille love you, I don’t understand.”

Me: “Our life faces have changed quitte a bit. I still love you too, but I must not think about living together with you again. It are the traumas of your past that drove us apart. And not only us, it is the core reason why the other marriages failed. You could not trust anyone anymore to come close to you. If I tried to break through the walls you became cruel.”

He: “Yes I am traumatized”

Me: “I always believed Love could heal, but it is not my- but only your Love that can heal you.”

He: “I think you are right.”

Me: “what do you think is it that makes love - LOVE?”

He: “helping you to evolve to independence ?”

Me: “I think when you really really love someone you want what’s best for the other.

He: “Yes I agree.

Why did you fall in love with P? What has he get that attracted you?

Me: “what do you think?”

He: “sex”

Me: “That’s typical male to give that as a first reason, No that was not the main thing, most important is that he saw me and he knows joy and play fullness, what I really liked was his courage to be vulnerable and we were of equal merits.

He: “I don’t think you love him.”

Me: “We don’t have a relation anymore. But I sure would like to find out if and how we could have one. You are a very difficult man and so is he. I Seem to fall for difficult types such as the two of you.

After You fell and started to talk and react so slow and confused, I thought you might have brain damage. It scared me lot . But the doctors did not think so and now I think, the traumas of the past, the fall and having to wait so long brought you in a state of shock and psychosis. For your mental health I think it is absolutely necessary to reconcile with reality . To regain your mental strength you have to fight the demons of fear. You can only win this inner war if you let love win. I think it is time to make a real sacrifice. Please do it, do it for me. Win this war and allow to happen what is best for me.’

Than he started to tell a me story of the past that should explain why he is so traumatized but I stopped him. I knew already to many of these story’s.

Me: “All these story’s and facts are as many excuses not to change. They don’t really matter, it is not even necessary to understand them. What’s needed is that they no longer rule you but that you master them. Only love can do that.

I gave him the drawing of the swastika and put it in the pocket of his pyjamas to remember what to do and why. He was tired and I brought him to bed.

The next day he was to tired to talk, but that was okay. The day after his condition get worse and worse. He was very very sick, he could not talk , only moan and make incomprehensible sounds. It seemed he was going to pass out. Fear attacked me. We would never solve the problem. I completely panicked. Again nearly, but nothing to come from it. It made me angry. It felt exemplary of our life together. All this hope, this wanting to believe, wasted. I sobbed and cried and cried

At the intensive care his situation improved. Yesterday he was able to make some kind of contact he was more clear in his head. Off course he is still vulnerable but hope is restored. Today I will not go to see him. There is so much family to visit him I teak a break

To be continued

By Carine on 11/21/2009

I’ve often pondered the relationship of love and healing....wondering where love fits into the shaman/healer paradigm. 

Could the trance-effect and heart-connection (love) of aquatic therapy be a thread to ride toward equilibrium and coherence?  It seemed too simple and was a skill that came too easy. So, skepticism led me on a merry (and excruciating) wild goose-chase: searching, reading and wondering until arriving full circle brought me back to the water, and to the wisdom of breath and heart and listening.

Hmmm.... after all these years, I picked up ‘Entering the Circle’ again, sought to find and capture the certitude of Olga, found this thread of sharing instead and may just be inspired to return to the simplicity of the water, trusting the wisdom of heart and knowing.

Thank you and with love

By Jann on 11/29/2009

Dear Carine,
Thank you for sharing your story. As I was reading it I thought to point out something to you. Even though you write as if the story is about your former partner’s trauma I believe your story is very much about our own personal trauma that made you accept and play your role in the relationship you described. I believe you understand happiness in the context of being needed by an individual who has a certain lack – with your persona you want to fill in this lack and gain a sense of value. This way of understanding happiness and oneself might be coming from past traumas – and this way of feeling and thinking can be chaining the soul. This can make you vulnerable in front of people that can use your weakness and trap you in the sort of relationship you describe – this is how your two similar relationships are to be explained.
With love I would suggest working through your own traumas – and learning that your sense of value rests in your own soul – there is where you have a home.
A big hug for you Carine.

By flory on 12/08/2009

Dear Flory,

Your comment to my story is crystal clear and I do agree with you.
I am more or less aware of my failing attitude.
Only thing is.
I don’t know yet how to release myself of whatever it is that keeps me trapped.
I don’t know where it comes from. I don’t understand it.

Thank you for your kind and sincere response.
I love becoming part of this Cliffhouse community.
May be this community will help me find my way out of my pittfall.

With love, Carine

By Carine on 12/08/2009

Dear Carine,
I believe that understanding that you search for a certain type of love relationship because of things within you – because you have been structured early in life to connect in this way to an other- is important in your spiritual growth.
What might help is directing your attention inwards. I believe it is important to start a journey of discovering yourself and of loving yourself. The way you were trying to address your partner’s trauma, do it now for yourself. You can start this journey in many ways, this depends on each person’s inclinations. You can do it through art, writing, meditation, thinking and imagining. You can visit yourself back in difficult memories and offer words of compassion and a hug – you can be your own angel – in this way you could understand and love yourself. I believe that the most important love relationship is the one we have with ourselves. This is the base – if we embrace with love our own soul, we can embrace the whole world in the same way.
Try little by little every day – think about it as starting a love relationship with yourself- start with a courtship offering good thoughts, special attention, and friendship. You have been doing this for others, try it now for yourself.

By flory on 12/08/2009

Dear Olga, Cliff house visitors and Flory,

This is the last chapter to the swastika story.

The day before yesterday my husband passed away.
The last three weeks we have been closely together.
I feel we did well.

FARWELL TO ALBERT

I would like to tell something about what there was between Albert and me.

There was something marvelously beautiful in the mystery of attraction
between the two of us . I think the deepest drive in us and everything
alive is, to grow and to develop to full realisation and to eliminate
every thing that’s in its way to do so. However this may be, I think it
was this, that brought us together, and I believe these underlaying
drives produced the chemistry between us. Vise versa there was this
mysterious something in the other that we needed, to get to know our
selves and to be able to become what we, at our best, could be.

When Albert and I met, we both had scratches and bruisses on our soul.
How severe those were, differed. Too painful traumatic memories of the
past were hidden in de deepest cellars of our memory and sometimes, when
the memory was triggered, they came as demons of fear and suppressed
rage to disturb our happiness.

That’s why 10 years ago our relation changed, (it did not end) Those
last years we fought our own demons. It wasn’t easy, but it was good.
That we did hurt each other, is not a merit, but it was part of a
healing process in wich we did free ourselves of some of those
disturbing forces. Albert and me, we were each others, sometimes, bitter
medicine. But it worked and that’s now the only thing that matters.

The past three weeks in this process of dying we have been very close,
we understood each other and on both sides there was love in abundance

Shortly before he died I said to Albert: When you go, please take my
nonsense with you. And he said: Yes I will.

After he passed away, when I walked the street, a flood of warmth and
gratefulness came over me. I felt our connection and that I am loved
because I am me. There is nothing better to wish for.

Thank you Albert, you were so tremendously strong.

By carine on 12/11/2009

Dear Carine,

I feel so grateful to share this experience with you, even indirectly, even from a distance. It touched me deeply, the beauty of your story and the mystery of the interconnection of us all. It is heart-breaking and heart-empowering at the same time. I feel privileged that you came to the Cliffhouse and that we were able to be part of your story. I know it will continue touching people in the most unpredictable and beautiful way.

Love,
Olga

By Olga Yahontova on 12/11/2009

It appears that prior to being subjected to the coercive impact of prevailing primary formative processes, the human bio organism presents no great resistance to energy flows. This enables energy to freely flow along its structures and interact with its environment.

Prevailing primary formative processes arising from the evolution and consolidation of the currently Dominant Dualistic Perceptual Paradigm
and unconsciously polarized around the objective of ensuring the survival and continuity of the human species, coercively guide these energy flows to become polarized around the incorporative, defensive and reproductive mechanisms and their related organs.

Since reproduction is no longer a primary concern given that we have the technological capacity to ensure the survival and conscious evolution of the human species and since we are able to move out of the currently Dominant Dualistic Perceptual Paradigm and enter the emerging Non Dual Perceptual Paradigm, we can now unbind human energy from its polarization around the organs of consumption, defense and re production and utilize them for this purpose.

By Nirmalan Dhas on 01/18/2010

The human perceptual apparatus
is currently locked
into the dualistic mode of perception.

We may choose to shift out of this
Dominant Dualistic Perceptual Paradigm
and enter into the emerging
Non Dual Perceptual Paradigm
.
There have always,
from the very emergence of the human species,
been individuals
who have been able to make this shift.

Some of them
set up systems of teaching and training
that they hoped would help others
who wished to make this shift
to do so too.

The number of individuals
making this shift is increasing.

Those who have made this shift
are beginning to link up with each other
to form a global network.

This global network
has the potential to function as a
global perceptual mechanism and as a
global strategic guidance system
that can facilitate
Civilizational Transformation
and
Conscious Evolution.

By Nirmalan Dhas on 01/18/2010

Our brains can be seen as a mass of neurons along which energy flows. Energy is able to flow along neurons whose connections with each other have been activated. These neurons whose connections with each other have been activated form neural networks along which energy flows.

This energy fuels the perceptual processes by which we perceive ourselves and our universal environment. The way we perceive ourselves and our universal environment in turn determines the way we relate to ourselves and to our environment.

The depth and scope of the perceptions we are able to make depends on the extent of our neural networks and the amount of energy we are able to access.

A well functioning neural network, free of blockages – which are best described as resistances – and sufficient activated neural connectivity to accommodate available energy flows gives rise to Mastery and The Power to Guide.

A high level of activated neural connectivity ensures a smoothand constant flow of energy giving rise to a calm and serene disposition withdeep perceptual capacity that gives rise to Wisdom, Insight and Understanding.

A level of activated neural connectivity that reaches beyond the boundary of our skin and activates connections with our universal environment leads to the accessing of Enlightenment and Illumination. The consistent maintenance of such a level of activated connectivity leads to the practice of Respect Radiance and Compassion in our day to day lives.

Activated Neural connectivity is both cultivated and programmed. The programming of our activated neural connectivity is done through primary formative processes that include the family, culture and school.

Beyond this programmed activated neural connectivity it is possible for us to cultivate the activation of more connections and this is what gives some of us a higher level of activated neural connectivity than others.

Most of us do not bother to cultivate activated neural connectivity and in fact are not aware that we can do so. We are satisfied to function with the limited level of activated neural connectivity that is programmed into us by the primary formative processes that we are subjected to.

These processes give us sufficient activated neural connectivity to see ourselves as autonomous entities within a world that is a collection of objects which have been created at a particular point of time by a creator or creators at whose mercy we are and to whose authority we must subject ourselves and which will come to an end in time as well.

This perception leads to an unending and obsessive generation of desire and a consequent compulsive search for the satisfaction of these desires which we seek to do through the exploitation of each other and the consumption of our environment.

The programming process leaves many resistances and gaps as well, leading to frequent impediments to the flow of energy. These impediments are experienced as emotions, feelings, desires, cravings, impulses and urges and their physical expression often leads to violence.

When excess energy enters these limited activated neural networks there is a heightened attention to self preservation that leads to what we call paranoia. It may also lead to a heightened attention to reproduction with frenzied sexual imagery and activity.

It may also lead to an increased attention towards the need to understand what is going on within and without us and this often leads to the articulation and maintenance of authoritarian and dogmatic constructs and to attempts to impose these on others as well.

A reduction in the flow of energy – experienced as an intense anxiety - leads to a loss of interest in life and a preoccupation with mental content that may lead to a loss of interest in survival and to self destruction.

An increase in activated neural connectivity along with the ability to access more and more energy leads to the perception of the world as an eternal and stochastic process and ourselves as perceptual mechanisms generated by this process in order to perceive its own potential and work towards its realization.

This level of perceptual capacity brings with it an awareness of the possibility of generating greater perceptual capacity by linking up with other perceptual mechanisms.

An optimum linkage threshold of one hundred and forty four brains per brain has been suggested – though there is no documentation of its ever having been tested.

The process of making such linkages and the supporting of such linkages is a task of our times. It demands the structuring of new types of relationships and the construction of new types of infrastructure that can support such relationships.

By Nirmalan Dhas on 01/18/2010

Olga.  I am very excited to have found your writings today.  I agree with your conclusions on the emergence of global consciousness as the next probable expression of evolving humanity.  Egregor and Tulpas are all around, self organizing, multiplying and merging, birthing new things every day.  I look forward to following your work!  Namaste

By animus pax on 01/24/2010

These thoughts come to mind:

Energy is neither created nor destroyed, it only transforms (so we are taught). Love is eternal and immortal and within us to manifest if we so choose to. It is awesome when in a quantum way we meet someone and something (the awakening to love within us) clicks, it is as if we become alive to our true divinity, and we get swept away in the energetics of it. The urge to merge as one is a harmonious attribute intrinsic to our own beginnings in this life, where we as mere mortals can touch upon the creative forces of the super natural, and the unseen. The power of the intangible that all of sudden becomes tangible in the arms of the one we unite with resonates within our every cell, and courses light into our veins...it is the DNA in our blood of the divine we awaken to. No wonder when we no longer seem to have grasp of that which awakens us to these forces seems to elude us, we long for it to emmanate within us again. It is always within us, it is us through accordant or discordant thoughts and actions we create our reality of the experience and define our existence of our present experience. It is how we attach meaning to our experience...that either sustains us, or can whither us inside. To keep our heart open to love, by loving in the face of no love being returned where our love seeks solace in the divine, we become at peace and can accept what is, and have the freedom to experience entering into the realm where love unites us again with those whose frequencies are in parallel with our own...or perchance in harmony with the divine will intended for us...whether it be in this dimension or in another.

Let not the absence of outside validation keep us void of manifesting and emmanating love, for that is what is precisely called for in these situations. The silence of knowing within the mind of the heart that to bring forth and emmanate love from out of our being, and to cherish one another will bring us closer to that which we seek, no matter the trials such a way of being can bring.

These are some of the thoughts I have on the matter. Keep faith, for one of the greatest lines I have seen, was from the movie Moulin Rouge, “The greatest gift of all is to love and be loved in return”. We must know when we do not think love is being returned that is a delusion.We must accept love is there for us, and awaken ourselves to believe this for in this process we draw love not only near to us, we give it freely...a love void of time, but a love that is eternal and immortal, and one with the creative forces of our existence.

Maresha

Thank you Olga for this site, and for writing Entering the Circle. I bought the book on audio cassette in the 90’s, and several things you mentioned made quite an impact on me and re-inforced some things I was learning.

By Maresha on 01/31/2010

I would like to add...we are in this pardigm of our existence, being born into the flesh for some reason. It could be to return to Oneness, it could be to return to God,...the answers man could come up with could be endless. Could it be to overcome the desires of the flesh and senses, and to overcome the dualities.

Baird T. Spalding in the, Masters of the Far East reported the need to overcome the dualities, and I tend to agree with those teachings.

Yet, concerning reproduction, is being in the flesh all that bad? I don’t believe it is. I believe it is a gift. When we love, it goes beyond the flesh, yet in the flesh we can reproduce, and the drive to do so by the flesh keeps us procreating and populating the planet, so of course those biological, and physiological urges motivate us to merge at a physical level, yet inherit in this drive, I believe is the need to unite in spirit with the oneness of the creative forces of the divine....to become ONE...where from two one is created. Too many allow the needs of the flesh to dicate their actions, and do not bridle their desires to be in harmony with the oneness.

Having the senses are not a bad thing, it is what we do with them, that determines the outcome in our lives. I was told, bridling the desires is like riding a bridled horse, you can then use the power of the horse to get you where you want to go, for if you do not bridle your desires, it is akin to riding an unbridled horse, the ride may be fun, fast and furious, but where you end up, you may be left scratching your head, wondering how you got there.

A thought that came to me one day, was this:

Flesh will never touch the soul, it is the soul that touches the flesh.

Maresha

By Maresha on 01/31/2010

Beautiful souls and storys from people all around the world in this blog. I’m thankfull to be reading your storys that you all share, it helps me to find my own truth in this existence.

Thank you all for the wisdom!

By Tashmina on 05/07/2010

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